Deep Thoughts

Here we are again! I can’t believe you’re still here and I must confess – It’s been a struggle letting you walk through my mind again. It’s a lot easier when I feel like you don’t notice me. I can only stare a little longer when I know you won’t be looking – so you won’t catch me. But now, I think you see me. Now, I think I mean something so I’m trying to move a little different.

So to you, one of many hopeless hearts just passing through
Trapped in a blur not knowing what to do
Here’s me hoping to reach out to you…

PLEASE DON'T GO...

It just so happens no-matter how involved, stable and perfect your parents or relatives are or aren’t, there are a whole bunch of lessons you’re only going to learn by going through life. Some of these lessons are like cold slaps right across your face that get you completely off guard or have you questioning yourself for years and years to come while on completely separate occasions, other revelations are pleasantly unexpected and taste like a warm banana bread or chocolate fudge cake breaking apart in your mouth.. Splendid! Just wonderfully splendid!

Hello!
Welcome back to my little world of possibilities. I’m trying to blog at least twice a month now so I don’t lose your interest just like my date did at that P.5 Lohana Academy School dance because I showed up dressed in a leotard. I’d have been a pro at chicken tiika recipes and chili bombs by now but oh well, I think I’m doing pretty okay being a bad-ass at cream mashed potatoes, banana bread cakes, sweet pork and beef barbecue sauce.

She said goodbye the last time, I wish it were like last time. She changed her mind and came around again. It’s been a while now and still no word. How did she leave me? Oh, the nerve of her!

Now am sitting at the bar saying, “Bartender another round…”

Guess whose drunk again? This bar is an old familiar friend. Drink until I’m stumbling down.

And she was on my mind, I know it’s not the best of times to call, but I need you now.

“Bartender, pour me another round…”

Dear Eliza, Lisa, or Summer if we really go there,

Lately, I’ve been plagued with thoughts of you. You’re on my mind more than I make sure and you’re in my heart more than you may know. I miss you and I vaguely remember your cheeky laugh. I think you have the deepest set of dimples I’ve always wanted and you have the most innocent glowing eyes that make me fiercely protective of you.

The thought of you makes me want to give up everything and anything for you. Even though you’re not yet here, I find myself making sure when you come home, you have everything you need.

Your father is a King, and when I said I do; he made me his Queen. We were apart for quite a while and it took some time but when we finally collided; big bang, big bang… Look at what we made beautiful, You! Our princess. When I look at you, I see him… reflections of the love he made with me.

You are the most perfect thing I’ve ever created and I see me in you every day. You are the light of my life. You are my grace, my peace of mind, you are mine. I got everything I ever wanted the day I met you. You’re my simple thing.